The President's Day Snow

Okay! So it's really snowing. Really. Like 6 inches in the last five hours.

I lost my phone but now it is found except it is still not with me. And with all this snow I son't know when I will have it back. Hopefully tomorrow. But maybe not. Gods I feel lost without it. like I lost a limb or something. I don't know any phone numbers. I feel really disconnected.

I'm still trying to work out a meeting with my sponsor to do a fifth step. I feel like she is being evasive. Like she really doesn't want to do this. i wish she would just say that if it's so. That would be okay. But this crazy dodging is not okay. I am supposed to have therapy tomorrow but I don't know what will happen with all the snow. I guess we'll jsut have to see. It might be okay by 4 pm tomorrow when I would have to start on my way. Hope so.
That was off topic but on my mind.
My sponsor said that:
* I am happy to assist you with a 5th step. However, if some of these things are out of my realm I will again refer you back to your therapist. I can only help you with what I have expereince with in regards to the steps. *
Okay. What does she think I have to tell her? That I am an axe murderer on alternate Tuesdays?
This makes me wonder. And it makes me feel like I am so broken she cannot bear to listen to what has gone on in my life. Which may be true. I just wish she would say so.
I am confused and hurt and feeling like she doesn't really want to be my sponsor. Which would be fine but I need to know that.