You can say I'm bragging but really I'm just shouting about something I did that I am proud of. I wrote a review of a book for a website I like. And they published it. Okay, so it's the web. But I've never been published anywhere. If you're interested you can check it out here:
http://stubbydog.org/2012/02/beautiful-joe/
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
okay. I give.
The verdict is in. Gluten does make my joints hurt more. No eating it makes them hurt less. I still hurt enough that I thought it didn't really help.
The way elimination diets work is that at some point one retries the eliminated food. I hurt enough that casual observers could see that I was hurting. Plus, I had a strange discomfort in my stomach. Not a pain really. The best description is discomfort, unease. It is an odd, difficult to describe feeling. I had not expected it to be connected to the gluten, but I had noticed that my stomach felt calmer.
Huh. Whaddaya know.
The way elimination diets work is that at some point one retries the eliminated food. I hurt enough that casual observers could see that I was hurting. Plus, I had a strange discomfort in my stomach. Not a pain really. The best description is discomfort, unease. It is an odd, difficult to describe feeling. I had not expected it to be connected to the gluten, but I had noticed that my stomach felt calmer.
Huh. Whaddaya know.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Balance is a lovely thing. But the thing about it is that it is fleeting. Like the weather. And who's to say that is not balance. In the long view.
I am sad today about Whitney Houston. We were the same age. We lived a similar path. Mine, however, has lead to life while hers lead to death. No one can answer the whys of that. I made choices. I still make choices. I try to make choices that will on my best days bring me joy and on any given day the peace and contentment that comes from knowing that I am moving in the right direction. That there is priceless. Ya can't buy it and ya can't pay for it with fame and fortune.
There is an indescribable twist in my heart when I hear/see/meet people who can't or won't find their way out.
that was one of the choices, back in the day, of a title for the Big Book. But there were too many with that title. It is a fitting one though.
Perhaps, today, I will try to make that pie. The recipe sounds tricky and I have only one set of ingredients. No second chances. Well, the upside is that if the crust is awful the filling will still be edible!
I am sad today about Whitney Houston. We were the same age. We lived a similar path. Mine, however, has lead to life while hers lead to death. No one can answer the whys of that. I made choices. I still make choices. I try to make choices that will on my best days bring me joy and on any given day the peace and contentment that comes from knowing that I am moving in the right direction. That there is priceless. Ya can't buy it and ya can't pay for it with fame and fortune.
There is an indescribable twist in my heart when I hear/see/meet people who can't or won't find their way out.
that was one of the choices, back in the day, of a title for the Big Book. But there were too many with that title. It is a fitting one though.
Perhaps, today, I will try to make that pie. The recipe sounds tricky and I have only one set of ingredients. No second chances. Well, the upside is that if the crust is awful the filling will still be edible!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
advocation
So today was like some kind of tipping point. Dumped me right on my ass it did. So I called the rheumatologist's office to see if March 15th was still the soonest they could see me. Yep. And the girl hung up on me before I could say anything else! Errrr!
So then I called my regular doctor. He was not in today. He'll get back to me tomorrow. Whether that will be of a helpful nature or not is yet to be seen.
It FEELS like I'm not doing a very good job of advocating for myself. But what else can I do? Financially, I need to work within the system that takes my insurance. That may allow for alternatives later but for now it does not. Everybody wants all their ducks in a row.
Just frustrated. I lie in bed at night and take an inventory of what hurts. Is it muscle? Is it joint? The muscle pain seems easier to aleviate.
But, on the bright side I have been sober for 22 years today!
So then I called my regular doctor. He was not in today. He'll get back to me tomorrow. Whether that will be of a helpful nature or not is yet to be seen.
It FEELS like I'm not doing a very good job of advocating for myself. But what else can I do? Financially, I need to work within the system that takes my insurance. That may allow for alternatives later but for now it does not. Everybody wants all their ducks in a row.
Just frustrated. I lie in bed at night and take an inventory of what hurts. Is it muscle? Is it joint? The muscle pain seems easier to aleviate.
But, on the bright side I have been sober for 22 years today!
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