No, no, don't get any kind of crazy idea that I'm done with my fourth step...I'm just enthralled with the process this time in a way I have never been before. 

It seems that some part of me tells me that if I don't continue to play out these scenes exactly as I always have I will die. 
Literally, figuratively, I'm not sure it matters.
When really, the reverse is true. 
Fascinating.

Not that I am unaware that everything dies.  It's just that the message I get is SO toxic.  And backwards.