advocation

So today was like some kind of tipping point. Dumped me right on my ass it did. So I called the rheumatologist's office to see if March 15th was still the soonest they could see me. Yep. And the girl hung up on me before I could say anything else! Errrr!
So then I called my regular doctor. He was not in today. He'll get back to me tomorrow. Whether that will be of a helpful nature or not is yet to be seen.

It FEELS like I'm not doing a very good job of advocating for myself. But what else can I do? Financially, I need to work within the system that takes my insurance. That may allow for alternatives later but for now it does not. Everybody wants all their ducks in a row.

Just frustrated. I lie in bed at night and take an inventory of what hurts. Is it muscle? Is it joint? The muscle pain seems easier to aleviate.

But, on the bright side I have been sober for 22 years today!