hurting and confused

So I hurt. Yep. I did my yoga asanas, I walked the dogs, I've been moving nearly all day. But that hurts. It hurts to walk, it hurts to type, it hurts to cook.
I made some concoction with lentils and spices and onions and spinach today. Crap! I had asparagus to put in it and I forgot. Oh well. Asparagus in my next concoction.

Y know, something that really annoys me is that my doctor tols me years ago that the pain in my knees was probably arthritis. Take advil. Okay, but he never made it clear that it was probably NOT osteoarthritis. Because I was probably twenty something at the time. It was manageable with advil so...carry on. Huh. See, it was MORE managable with advil a few weeks ago. Until my eyeball exploded (not for real...see back posts) and I had to stop taking it. Then I found out just how much I really hurt. Which is enough to seriously stress me out and slow me down. How is that helpful? Isn't rheumatiod arthritis a stress disease?

Okay, no one really knows for sure what the causes are. Some speculate trauma and stress, heredity seems to play a role. My dad has it. I think my gram had it.
But the honest ones say they don't know.
The remedies are many from steroids to NSAIDS to some stuff I do not understand, to meditation and yoga (see my frustration here?)

In my own life, it seemed to become a force to be reconded with after I started dealing with the sexual abuse from my childhood along with just ordinary abuse and neglect. And probably some just, dislike too.

What I would like today is just something that would make me more comfortable. More able to move without pain. Able to sleep without pain. That's what I would like.

Is there a lesson in all this? Or is my Higher Power just dropping me on my head again?
I would really like to see the point in all this. I'm one of those people. If I know why I get on board sooner. I'm having a really hard time with all this. Really.